Another Mother's Day is here. Another one without my mom, my first one without my sister and mom. Nothing can prepare you. Oh, sure, intellectually, I knew this day would come, but the feeling is stifling.
I don't know if you've ever seen the movie “Death Becomes Her” with Goldie Hawn, Meryl Streep, and Bruce Willis, but there's a scene in the movie that perfectly shows how I feel right now. It's actually a really funny movie if you ever see it on cable. Anyway, it's really accurate.
I've written about my mom before, and I've written about my sister before. Being without both of them is pain beyond words. All I want for Mother's Day this year is to crawl into a cave, tighten into a fetal position, and be in the dark. Then my environment would match my mood.
However, I have two wonderful kids who love me and I need to be present for them. It's funny, I never thought I would make Mother's Day about my kids, but if it weren't for my kids, I wouldn't have a reason* to notice Mother's Day this year.
If you're celebrating this year, Happy Mother's Day. Hope it's more than you dreamed of!
*It's not my intention to slight all the great moms I know or the dads who are dads and moms. It's not that you're not important; you are. I'm just empty this year.
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