As I said previously. All of my requisite doctor's appointments are in the books! The only step left is the medication randomization, which is Wednesday, a few days from now.
I cannot tell you how much hope I am attaching to this medicine. I know there's no cure for MS, but if I can get some symptom relief to get back to feeling more like myself; somewhat muchier, I'll be so grateful.
As the day draws closer, I'm filled with anticipation, and a little anxiety. The anxiety isn't about the medication exactly; it's not me worrying about side effects, it's more like, “what if I'm one of the people who doesn't respond?”
I detest the “what if” game.
I'm trying really hard to suppress that stupid voice, but every so often, “what if...” Shush! “Yea, but what if...” DOUBLE shush. Of course, that voice wants to chat at bedtime, when the rest of the world is quiet. And it tries to get loud, making Pollyanna turn into a shrew. SHUT UP!
It will work, and I will feel better. I will.
That positive voice is always quieter than the negative voice...I wonder why that is?
Happy Independence Day to all of you. Here's hoping that I'm going to regain a bit more of my independence.
Addendum...
That post turned out a great deal whinier than it sounded when I was writing it. I really don't want to be the whiny, poor me, I feel crummy gal, but I also don't want to start the post all over again because I need to go grocery shopping.
What to do, what to do.
I'll leave you with a little humor (some of you might say very little)
What is the healthiest kind of water?
WELL water. HAHAHAHAHA
Until next time...
And chronically modest, too
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