Unbalanced

Today I was reminded of how much effort it takes to do commonplace things. I think I finally realized why it takes me longer to do things, and why I'm feeling like my energy depletes faster than it used to. Maybe. Wanna hear my theory?

OK, so when I saw my personal neurologist, and when I went for the three-hour tour of neurology, it was brought to my attention several times that I have balance problems. Today, I was walking into a room, and I stumbled into the doorway. I stumbled because I lost my balance, causing me to lean hard into the doorway. I've noticed that I'm taking extra steps sideways because my stride is throwing me off-balance. I haven't fallen recently (quick, find some wood and knock!), but it's enough to interrupt my walking, or standing.

Now, if you remember anything about this stupid illness, you'll remember that my chief complaint is fatigue. I have a finite amount of energy each day (as do all of you) to do everything that needs to be done. However, I start with less energy, and use more for mundane tasks, like walking without falling, catching dishes that I dropped (usually mugs while I'm washing them), doubling back because I forgot the whoozywhatsis, and forcing my eyes to focus. In most people, those things are automatic, but thinking about making my body do things also uses energy. You see where I'm going with this?

Oh good, tell me, because I seem to have forgotten the point I was trying to make.

Um, I was either going to reference using more energy, starting with less energy, or something altogether different. Nope, it's gone. Oh, and I'll bet it was pithy and clever, too. Drat.

All righty then, well, moving on...balance issues are a new problem for me. I don't recall having to think about walking. Oh sure, once in a while I'd stumble, or my foot would drag, or I'd stand up and get thrown off-balance, but I don't think it's ever been like this. I'd also experience sit down before I fall down, but that's got nothing to do with balance. Like I said in a previous post, I won't even have one drink if I'm driving because I really would fail the field sobriety test stone-cold sober.

Yea, so being off-balance is new to me, and I'm not really good at dealing with it. After all, I am a Libra :)